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Thursday, November 5th, 2009
9:15 am	i have felt akward and i have been ashamed, i just think you're beautiful. so so so beautiful. i think you're so beautiful. awesomely beautiful. perfect, in every way probably. so beautiful. so very beautiful. and i wish everything was perfect, in every way. and i tried to say hi, but this computer is really just a foolish thing, i'm glad you got a good mind because you're so very much beautiful so really beautiful, and i love you, as a young person loves what he thinks is beautiful. i said to myself, that you are right. i said to myself, this is not to you l.s. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
9:32 am	i have felt akward and i have been ashamed, i just think you're beautiful. so so so beautiful. i think you're so beautiful. awesomely beautiful. perfect, in every way probably. so beautiful. so very beautiful. and i wish everything was perfect, in every way. and i tried to say hi, but this computer is really just a foolish thing, i'm glad you got a good mind because you're so very much beautiful so really beautiful, and i love you, as a young person loves what he thinks is beautiful. i said to myself, that you are right. i said to myself, this is not to you l.s. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 21st, 2009
3:58 pm	rough edges and get-togethers people and myself me and the whole world soft and cold and rough and hard likes and dislikes and heaven and grass in this whole world their is surely your spirit there is surely reality (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 28th, 2009
2:49 pm	a good part of life is waiting for another day a good part of life is waiting and writing a good part of life is beautiful poetry (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:45 pm	long ago, i was a child. as a child, i played and thought free... i was a smart child, mhm.. a smart child... i saw the world good. i saw the world darn good. then, this kid heard about G-d. Philosophy game ignition. So young... so thoughtful.. Today I still say I am a child... (Comment on this)
2:15 pm	i wish to run away. i want to be heading to where i'm heading to, and then head out. i like the sun. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 18th, 2008
9:48 pm	summertime, and an old baseball mit Oh sun, how hot you are today, beating down on me, how absolutely miserable you make me, how I cannot do anything, how I sit inside as if under my bed, hiding from you. Oh look, an old baseball mit, I suddenly feel like going outside... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
10:26 pm	what i want is not more and not less that to be happy somewhere and independent. life in that sense can sometimes begins to remind us that the way we are living might not be right, and very quite awesomely shows us again that our priorities and purposes still are, and have directed and direct our life. also, quite awesomely, we are showed again what are dreams in life are, and again, are reminded how precious it is, and how neive we are, and, even sometimes, we can be happy with our life, and, even sometimes, we can get to look again at our place in life. which is quite awesome. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
2:00 pm	strolling steamstream left by a loco motive a bright day rolling into almost evening, getting a little dark, out where the train runs along middle of some place thats hwere my thought is as i try to muster up anything to throw up on here 'half of what i say is meaning less so i sing this song of love' (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 7th, 2007
4:15 pm	as , in his thoughts, he said goodbye to her, like he has a million times before, woman said, 'i am no triangle, i'm a spiderweb' (Comment on this)
Friday, April 6th, 2007
11:54 pm	one day i'm going to settle down easy in a cozy shady grove cottage, somewhere somewhere or other. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 2nd, 2007
2:01 am	paranoid and full of it you know me, you know my travels galaxies intimation clear the temple so i can wallow, look, it's the guy without the brain geniusjustlookinforawayhome no reason all heart, it's where i've been i see it now, turning to ashes a night of scarlet fire hopes and ages, i thought a book and a few patterns that both need revision and a world of time and my thought roams, ridiculous harpoon river head travelled i am under fire, my loud shadow struts over me as i give candy to the children as i dream of a better day right on down to being a lowlife bum, a brokeheart b uddha, diseased i've come to no good know this though I shadow see ways where one day i'll be happy and shadow, know this someday'll be a day (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 24th, 2007
4:13 pm	i haven't written in my livejournal in a while... t'what seems like an era now... many special moons have passed, and i can't begin to pick up my pen, .. so , i hope to get back into livejournaling my feelings and thoughts, writign stories and little poems. if you're looking to read a nice season of my life.. that era of writing can be read through beginning from my last birthday, august 5th 2006. this last season, many seasons actually, seemed to be about a love in a dream, .. sitting here now writing, visions of a dream i had when i was verrry young are coming into rememberance.. i remember meeting a girl in the woods, next to an oldd fig tree. i remember loving this girl, wanting to be with her, follow her. i got a kiss, and that was it from our relationship, in that dream.. a dream girl is mysterious an thoughts on such a woman , these last few seasons, have been the brew of my life. at least what i've been sipping on in my dreams and thoughts. hopes of love. the lines between my dream girl and a Love Supreme, - love of God.Goddess... the line is thin, as was i confused through this time tumbling through the cosmic heart. but... i feel now is a new beginning. i know i have much to work on in my world... i wish i had more friends in my life .. but, none the less, baby steps ,,, i have a little way to go. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
7:22 pm	thanks giving dreams autumn's harvest well under way sweet magnolia and bulbing eyes witness what really lies beyond stock of wheat and rye on days like this clouds linking and creating such great display of fractal organic puff subtley suspended in air clouds and kingdoms. no zeus just hilltop, laying on your back the exchange of hydrogen of life of love, in the sky engages so masterfully when in love love, a cage of it's own, saving grace and watching clouds go by, yawnin, ,, the kingdom in the sky, stacks of clouds and air yet beyond of roots and hearts organic and compassion and here under this sky i manuver so diligently dreaming now of her kingdom in the sky. beyond roots, and hearts, beyond reasons and values lies a garden of Gods of our own the cherished deception that illuminates the night truly laying alone under the stars now, where the kingdom is all one lump of cloud an autumn night an autumn day a FIELD of harvest out yonder looking off the cliffs down into the valley, rolling hills and green rolling earth today, i feel thanks to all my great friends the wind the birds my friends and extended family, my mom my dad Mother Earth and Father God and even, my Self thank you all, (HONORSEED!!! pops into my head!!!!! LLLOOOOVVVVVEEEE YOU brother!!) an ashamed voice prays knowing i haven't been as grateful as i should, knowing i need to slow down and worship, appreciate, slow down~~~ and relax , really, and help get myself clear and sure my undying love (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
11:06 am	life is alright.. i know i have a lot going for me, but i cant seem to lift my gaze from the soil, or the sidewalk just infront of my feet half the time.. i feel like my days are dazes, wake up early to go to school, lonely school daze, drive back to town and wander between houses, high, sprawling out on couches and dreaming awake,, they're getting less and less intense, rather, im becoming less and less suspicous.. i no longer am running from my fate - rather, i know i have no true fate outside of whatever will happen,, before i felt as though i had a timeclock on me until running away and living free, now i know that the only timeclock is my own suspicion to wasting life - which i feel sometimes life is being wasted down here in south florida wallowing around school by myself, but i have created one way or another the life im living down here,, and its my choice to move on or what, school or not. before i thought my fate was to be living out on the lands and traveling and squatting and meeting all sorts of kind folks for my life, i yet dont know,, only know where i've been, and where i am now.... the future is a dream and free will surely creates it. still going for my teaching degree, but dont know the future of that, dont know if to teach highschool, elem., or college,,.. been thinking a lot about working with animals or working at a national park, but not too sure just the same.. all i know is, life's coming together.. had a few slaps in the face this last month crying obvious lessons.. slow down! patience! dont put all your eggs in one basket, and slow the fuck down with em too! desires are dreams, but dont write out a fate that might not manifest.. loosen up from desires live in the moments not everyone cares to hear abstract philosophies about things seemingly irrelevant. keep your mouth shut, but dont hide your love away.. listen to other people, listen softer n better dont give direction so much, don't prophecize im just a man (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
11:28 am	To have ever touched such poison such cowarse evasion from truth did it steer All of us, or one of us, it doesn't matter. But for such a burden to be mine and mine alone, I have walked myself to the corner and sat just as alone praying for peace. If it was ever such un brotherhood In the swampland bogs of south florida tales of hell have surely hit their mark and the gateway to love the garden of bliss my own taken from me poisoned. But alas, through nightmares and dreams I have awoken and knowing what i'm worth, now will plant seeds of peace cross the land uplifting not for salery not for love but in. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
11:27 am	Doff, as though I dont know myself. You fool It's me! Speak to me mockingly, down to me, let me be! Myself, does still care to show a fool, a fool's in my ear and myself, I kill to know. i thought to title this 'i against i', which i got from lawrences blog, but rehh,,, meant it to be my own consciousness vs my own~ but, howevere you see it (Comment on this)
Monday, September 25th, 2006
5:43 am	i have no room nor right to explain myself and this self justification only swells shallow desire so i fall back into my chest back into my own to stand alone from whence i came and here, standing plain i find is everything i ever tried to share freedom and love, for everyone still, all ways moreso then before been standing on the lighthouse tower just staring off at one boat offshore through old binocculars of my own for so long that i forgot to tend the light, spread it round the life of a lighthouse keep aint all that bad,,, the hermitude is,,, eh days are free to do whatever, nighttimes shine through the dark amongst other things (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 16th, 2006
11:17 am	natural gas prices have dropped from $2.80 to $2.55 in the last week (Comment on this)
12:38 am	that woman deserves her revenge to perish my car~ driving all day now tonight i found my intergalactic positron myself i feel someone trying to kiss me, so so badly and i know who it really is and i know who only thinks it's about me* it really is~~~ did you look to the right and see 'break'? that's it, i'm out. im sick of writing i need to get back to thinking falling into love is falling into yourself rather, =) (Comment on this)